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we had a fight. i felt offended by his harsh words. silence.

i sat still at da bench. reaching my mp3. acting like i was up to somethng.

he came with a frown dat i used to have. often. he made his 'hurry' look which is soooo annoying n hmph!

i stood suddenly n walked away without giving a glance. serve him right.

as fast as i cud. ran towards da toilet with a sudden pain in the belly. not da usual ones.

pms.

da phone rang. 5 missed calls. it rang again. i can sense his urge to drag me back. i wasnt pretending. he thought dat i was.

went to da car but he asked me to drive. bullshit. i was sicken n tired by his act. i cried for mercy. it was so painful. da stomach n heart.

he drove with yells. i yelled back. but mixed up with tears.

he stopped. went out. i cried. i was thinking hard. recalling all da terrible things he had put upon me. all da pain n careless traits. i weeped in silence. but ended up in an agony cry.

he went inside. drove to his home for asar prayer. i sat inside da car. da pain is unbearable.

he came back with pink panadols. it was a flattering act. he drove to da playground.

a while. i went out towards da swing. sat on it looking around. he came to me. sat at da other swing. i ignored him for once i felt hatred n disgust towards him.

i left. moved towards da bench.

he came with a cheeky smile. surprisingly. i smiled back. no. i grinned. n blushed.

he asked me to walk with him around da area. we walked. in complete silence.

he reminded me of my father. whom always able to create a smile on my face on any circumstances. even if he put his silly smile or create his lame jokes. i will always smile back. no. i will grin back. even laugh at da same time.

i promised to myself to find someone like my dad.

n now.

i believe i did.


these three men of my life:

my father
my brother
my other half


i love him for he is da resemblance of my dad n brother. n i love him because he is himself.



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